What We Entered

I don't need Christianity or its heroes. Such harm was rejected long ago. Yet some stories say something when others are mute. Jesus did not love Mary Magdalene more than Judas, Peter or John. He loved each one universally, unconditionally, eternally. So it is that different marriages work together for the fullness of what remains above all Names. How did we miss this simplicity before now? So often Christianity is reduced to a path of ethical actions. Ethical according to whom – Love?

A water ban is put in place. Everything is thirsty. A certain spitefulness may or may not delight in watching the neighborhood burn and turn brown. Did you know that even those in charge of protecting us cannot tell our people what to do? Their small-minded flags will flap in the breeze over their green grass while there is not enough water to go around.

The ancient axiom, “that which is not lived is not redeemed”. Before moving on, another lesson shining through what we entered so long ago: don't deny matter or body, just do not become enslaved.

Like water into wine, we must transform our infatuation with passion into the loving friendship that is sweeter. Have we had enough patriarchy for today? Mom and Dad came to the house for the first time in 6 months. After two hours, they both stood up at the same time to announce their departure. They had to get back to monitor the tree removal process. Apparently, not being able to see the lake very well from the deck or the bedroom is an issue. I reminded them that the lake was still there even in you cannot see it well. Now that I think of it, maybe that's why they left with abruption.

Lately, night noises rattle a deep pain. Once they were the sounds we surely shared; now they are a melancholy song mercilessly singing all night long of a certain sadness.

As a reminder of the promises we made, I took the same trail as the day we talked. To be honest, this is hard. But the Queen Anne's lace and chicory and bending sumac stood as signposts. Baby rabbits, little brown hummingbirds, wild phlox. The energy to run was missing, so the long walk became longer. How easily our words flowed that day. How deeply love spoke.

Steel cut oats and blueberries. Ginger turmeric tea. The sun brings forth another day. And I am all in.